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From "The Wind in the Wheat," by Reed Arvin

          There is a great divide between good playing and great playing.  The worst musicians are unaware that this distance exists, and they fumble their way through magnificent literature, oblivious.  Most players sense this divide, however, and they know which side of it they are on.  A few of these determine to struggle their whole musical lives to reach the side of greatness by practicing and working harder and harder.  They end up impressing their friends and colleagues with their machine-like mastery of difficult pieces.  But they know that they are not great.  They know it because for a few moments, moments that they will remember and cling to for the rest of their lives, they have actually crossed that divide.  For a shining moment they understood, and they wept and played and believed in their greatness.  But they were cast out again, and no amount of struggling would bring them back across.

          No one crosses the divide by struggling, and no one passes through it by practice.  There is only one bridge across.  It is the bridge of abandonment, and it is built of helplessness, and of courage.  Great playing is given over to the music utterly and completely.  It is abandoned and willing.  It is calm and it is shrieking.  It is weeping and laughter, and more than anything else, it is love.

Who can say why anyone writes songs or poems or paints or sculpts or does anything creative.  Recognition?  Fortune and fame?  Self expression?  Perhaps it's the way we've been put together -- all of us.  When we play with our kids, cook a meal, write a letter, or tell a joke or a story we are all scratching the itch to be creative.
 
I don't know for sure why I write songs.  I don't know why I record them or why I have them available on this website.  I suspect it has something to do with a God given itch to be creative in this way.

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God is Able

Lord as Reward

The Solid Rock

Soli Deo Gloria